A great many people feel suicidal. It's the biggest killer of young men in the UK. So you are not alone, though you can feel entirely isolated.
Please spend 15 minutes here. There are a couple of things you can try and a few things to think about.
Help is available. It can be a bit hit and miss depending on where you live but getting to your nearest A&E can be a good start.
If you are not fearful that you will kill yourself in the next hour then please consider looking at the following links:
"The Maytree Suicide Respite Centre is the only place of its kind in the UK and fills a gap in services, between the medical support of the NHS and the helplines and drop-in centres of the voluntary sector. We offer a free 4-night/5-day stay, and the opportunity to be befriended and heard in complete confidence, without judgement and with compassion and warmth."
"Talk to us any time you like, in your own way, and off the record – about whatever’s getting to you. You don’t have to be suicidal."
"If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain."
Suicide Prevention Lifeline
"No matter what problems you are dealing with, we want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) you’ll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7."
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